Why are you so weak?

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Starting with a blank page
Walking through the lanes
My windows are open
The air dancing is still pale
Barren lands await in every corner
Mistaken identities
Again so guarded
The choices are less
I still have no clue
A friend, A partner of dawn
A simple question to ask
Why are you so weak?
Why are you so weak?

The miseries of human nature
The acceptance and defaults
Bodies plays a role defying in minutes
Running hot ,Just up and down endlessly
Why its so difficult to figure
The only Yes or No syllables
Knowing people only make it worse
The sides part anyway
Cold bloodied emotions
The tears tear away inside
Why are you so weak?
Why are you so weak?

The music plays in my hands
My lips shut so tight
There are voices in my head
Why does my heart plays to disguise
Guide the feet to walk away freely
The disappointments walk by side
I wonder still the lies may be twisted
Seeing in eye to eye
Promises of a Never land
The cuts become sharper in pride
Why are you so weak?
Why are you so weak?

The lame responses to forget
The endless wait of the nights
The hands became numb
The glance of the sky went high
I only see walking away
From the tomorrow you stole away
I am turning the pages
Burning the whole book you lied
The nuisance is frayed
I am going up to the peak
You standing here being a man
But Why are you so weak?
Why are you so weak?

You don’t touch me
The way it is used to be
This don’t happen like this
Holding on isn’t enough
I want to see the plunge
Hanging on the neck
Risk being seen in all my glory
I dream again and again
I reject the acceptance I need from you
I stand for my own self
I project all the stories from inside
I will cherish love and fear but you,
Just so weak
Just so weak

 

Happy!!

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How do I Start something I am not able to say
How do I find the words that I am not able to write
Why the world seems so broken
Why does the sun shine so dark
I have seen the glittery walks of life
I am targeted and bruised but why left Alive
Millions of pieces in me get back together every time
I never wanted it all or never being judged in misery
Why the future hanging loose in tide
It will never be the problems of people intact
There is always hatred, affairs and jealousy
Why? Why was I the problem inside
I was meant to go far far away
I have been judged, crushed & squished
In the all five senses I can see
As far as the sixth sense go
I am still suffering in misery
There is no shining light to guide
There will be never any justice to serve
There will always be dominant people
Crushing all the dreams coming your way perturbed
They will not stop at this, mindfulness carries in sway
The cries will just get louder, the broken will be never glued away
Stand up, stay high, More pains coming your way
Walk faster, fast slower the yells will follow in peace
The silence cuts the ears while my demons never walked away
There are always choices and yes I agree
Working it out, Sweating it out
I choose to just fade away
Be lost to the darkest of the ocean bed
I finally see the dream which will make it all comes to sense
I just want freedom out of everyone I know
Away and Away here I come
If the spirits could help, I have a favor to ask
Please let me be free, Just a stupid girl Alive
You don’t have to be scared of me
I am not that special one,I know it now and ever
LEAVE ME and don’t follow along
I just want to be away all, nowhere to know
You can go help all those who betrayed me
I wont know a thing, no pain felt inside
Just let me go away from my shadows
I will never get in the face of the wishes you determine
The destiny will always be curtained to mine
I will follow and taste my own dish in fire
No need to be scared of my lovely life
For it is scarred to be always like this deepest in your sight
HAPPYY!!!

L’amour est la poésie des sens

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I share a world, with myself
I find myself dwelling often inside
I have seen enough, well not so far
The images still shadow some truth in pride
Did I made the scenery big and clear?
Whether it is the stones pelting upon
Or maybe the spices that have shown again
I really wonder less or more in time
I am in hurry and this makes no sense
But then who cares? I may not touch you again
I wondered without you is there any place to belong?
Somewhere only If I know you are still thinking about me
Will the time be possible this way?
Any denies or goodbyes is getting weaker again and again
Maybe just a matter of time till it shines and fades by
There will be always me, down the ride
Just waiting for your arms to reach mine
The lips never to kiss the byes again
To the day we will meet again, once again
Walk past by, Walk with me, I see much afar
The stars just shine for us, making me cry
The moon has spread the vision, incredibly in white
So why the doubt of fire walking in fate?
See in my eyes, Don’t you just get the love?
The path has to be always chosen carefully
But My love is crazy, fiery and ready for the test
Lips speaking the wetness of this soul entrapped
Hard times in the frozen winds
I have always felt the cold inside
The feeling of numbness and pain
The look of your face seems so warm
You’re the faith I have been looking for
Come ,walk by past me and I can see some magic
The hand that touches your heart again
The look in the eyes make me fall insane
The love never got shortened
No matter how much I deny the part of you
You’ll always be my remedy, the part of me
The way you look at me with a smile, I can never deny
I will be with you, the unstoppable part of this destiny
We belong together and there will be no other chance
I am yours and I made you mine, Forever, Is It?

Dedicated to my Love:  SAAMEER

 

Being Useless

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I prefer being useless
I demand explanation
I am traveling far
I am skipping this situation
I fight with stones
The mountain turns deep
I have often felt
A lonely shallow creeps
Walking a while
I built a trend of vicious sand
The wind doesn’t whisper
The trees don’t laugh
Am i still the one
Speaking enough
Or just being useless helps
Whatever is the case
People save their face
The awkwardness of lies
The eyes that makes it Justify
The arms makes promises to keep
The hands walk miles away in sleep
The comfort of skin turn pale
Whenever I hear your name
The faking togetherness
Immersed in the sea of tears
I am a pelting stone
Shining in the same sand
Which every night
Slowly, Takes my dream away
Slowly, Takes my dream away
I still walk, why?
I have still moments to see
I should live life as should a girl
A doll less bitter, much better
My eyes see everything
The insults aren’t new to our kind
Definitely not worth the hype
Moments taken to write
What I have done so far?
Why is justice never served?
Another melodrama
From my chapter of life
None to be bothered
None to feel
My heart longs for the melody
Coming true someway
Walking towards me
The snow in my hands
Feels so soft
The coldness shiver inside
I am still dancing the same
I am not complaining
I would never guess
Being useless usually helps

When a heart sells

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I stand in this heaven
I have a market in front of me
It folds , It cries
There are mysterious ways to crawl
And what more surprises to say
It sells heart
It’s a pathway to fake love
Thinking out loud
We’ll never found
What we already miss
We steal the peace within
We may laugh at mistakes
But I’m certain
I don’t deserve
And my heart is on sale

There isn’t any fool
I don’t feel any chance
I just thought for a while
Maybe you would understand
The cries of skies
Never found enough
Never found afar
Hesitating I see in the eyes
A star beneath those beauty
Maybe my seller be kind enough
To treasure it for once
It’s not that cheap
It’s not that old
My heart on sale
Why I never deserve this chance?

My seller seen the pain
He has a sympathy with me
He tries to love it inside
Cherish it with forever
Stand by forever
There comes the promises
With drops in eyes
The palms makes the wish
Oh yes there is a trust again
It has never been long
It’s never that much to pass by
Beautifully walking
With lots of sparkles inside
The marketplace walks
Circling the intentions
Causing on my life
My heart sighs

Fast is life walking by
My home is my fear
The love inside my tears
The hands wished goodbye
Maybe it was all it meant to be
Being born totally free
I say at last
I wished twice in same
Crushingly under the feet
My seller has walked away
Finding eternity in pieces
The heart has to find the way
Never to return in this marketplace
Walking away
Walking away
Grateful to the miseries
I never did deserved that chance

Love to lost
Mountain so high
I have been dead
To be seen alive
The market is still there
The heart remains free
To be its own hero
To be its own love
And I’ll stand with him
Till the breath takes me away
Till my breath takes him away

Unnamed

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Silently I am opening some words
There are letters just kept there
Turning into blue, just like a sword
To say something, I just gave up on you

Hiding beneath the doors
The unopened smile walks by
I don’t want to collect thousand stones I see
Its that one gem I’m waiting for

Shall I say something which is not a lie
I withered with wind and time too shall passby
The river is silent, I don’t hear the sky
I have my faith shaken, It melt in my arms

Too much to count on, Too much to depend by
Mirrors are broken just like a  silent lie
Bless my soul, I feel afraid to see it again
I never wished for a broken holy name

Sun comes up, the moon shine well through
why my sky is still so dark?Why I cant see any star?
Just so in pain, Oh my soul, let me see the one reason
For to stay or to walk away

We all have places for us, We will all chant that name
Who is to survive, How much is my gain?
I see the art, it runs in my veins
Deep inside and I’m turning apart

I say No, you say yes back to me
I say Yes, you wish no to me
I pray yes, you kiss me the faith
The faith to go away, The faith to move again & again

The reason i got this far, I can walk through my hands
I fly with my wings, I hope they can handle
Walking away, Oh I see the end
Saying something, I just gave up on you

Here smiling and wishing upon the heavens above
To something I like, To something I wished in the end
Please destiny, Don’t test me again, I gave it back
Never again, Never see you again

Me?

 

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I am buying
I am laughing
I am seeing
And Yes I am crying
You sound so true
Yet you fail to Impress me
You say you love me
But you make me fall
You try to reach my hand
Yet you are the one to slip around
What is my fault?
Why am I punished?
All I wanted is to be yours
I just wanted to be true
Everyone’s chasing a show
I am no different
I am just trying to steal
My own freedom
My own thoughts
I sleep on stars
Maybe they are mine
May be they will remember
How am I?
Who they are?
Treating the scars
Invaded along the line
I am being gentle
I am being blind
I see just the love
Not its not mine
I lose a lot
I fear afar
I walk in darkness
I see no respect
I don’t know how
But I can’t just stop the feeling
I just can’t
I am being punished
I feel alive
Just while loving you
No complains, nor I demand
If you could understand
Touch me, Feel me,
I am still alive
Breathing here
All I wanted is to be yours
I just wanted to be true

Keep Rocking

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Mesh unwired
I run away
I see away
I stand torn
I sit unborn
I live a lie
I dream undone
I wish I smile
I wanna be awake a while
I wake up and I see
I will be me
I will see through
Whither sea sand
Wishful rain down
No dance to be
No chance left turn
There is no place for me
Out there I see nothing
More than just sky
More than some ground
I want to see my feet
I want to start afresh
The kings and queen
The princess died inside
I be seen shine above
Keeping strong
Keeping faith
No place for me still
I rock my world
In shatters that keep pinching
Wearing my heart on sleeve
You told me
We are awaken broken
Standing far on the doors
I kept walking silently
But how to start
When my hopes are frozen
I keep falling again
I keep walking again
Pushing down on me
Pushing down on me
I sail inside
I wash myself
I sit idle at times
I rock the way
I just keep rocking my world
Sitting at the seaside
I live the fresh air
The sands of smell
The love of new
The waves pinch me high
I keep racing with the waves
There are memories
I just washed away
I don’t need no memory
The place is my own
I call it my home
I love to sail though
I beat the odds on the sail
Together I walk with me
Lifting up and high
I just keep rocking my world
I just love to be me
I’ll see you never
I just keep rocking mine

Cage

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I am burning in cage
I am burning in cage
Pieces of me
Left the aisle inside
Judge me to love
The hatred fills alive
I am standing alone
So so alone
No drops of rain
No flakes of snow
Wishes are gone
Dreams didn’t survived
I am in hell
I am in hell
Here burning alive
I don’t wish to be abandoned
I ain’t a doll be rescued
A human worth if enough
If only the God knows through
My shimmer dispersed
My glitter torn away
I see no light
The Darkness has stayed here
It wants me
No friendship in sign
All relationships are dead
I’m burning in me
I am trapped in mine
I aid no pay
I say no goal
I imagine a lonely walk
A way to go
I keep walking
Till I find this cage
Broken from inside
I will remember
The people who saw
The only wish was more
I would have never saw
The truth be out
I don’t need anyone
The dark gives me power
I am all inside
Seeing the gaps
Just walking away
Scratching my nails
I feel free myself
And when I free
And I know I’ll be
I will just walk away
Silently and slow
I knew my future
Belongs without you
And I live few moments within
Yet the last moment
Has left never to confuse
The burning cage from inside
I’ll survive