When a heart sells

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I stand in this heaven
I have a market in front of me
It folds , It cries
There are mysterious ways to crawl
And what more surprises to say
It sells heart
It’s a pathway to fake love
Thinking out loud
We’ll never found
What we already miss
We steal the peace within
We may laugh at mistakes
But I’m certain
I don’t deserve
And my heart is on sale

There isn’t any fool
I don’t feel any chance
I just thought for a while
Maybe you would understand
The cries of skies
Never found enough
Never found afar
Hesitating I see in the eyes
A star beneath those beauty
Maybe my seller be kind enough
To treasure it for once
It’s not that cheap
It’s not that old
My heart on sale
Why I never deserve this chance?

My seller seen the pain
He has a sympathy with me
He tries to love it inside
Cherish it with forever
Stand by forever
There comes the promises
With drops in eyes
The palms makes the wish
Oh yes there is a trust again
It has never been long
It’s never that much to pass by
Beautifully walking
With lots of sparkles inside
The marketplace walks
Circling the intentions
Causing on my life
My heart sighs

Fast is life walking by
My home is my fear
The love inside my tears
The hands wished goodbye
Maybe it was all it meant to be
Being born totally free
I say at last
I wished twice in same
Crushingly under the feet
My seller has walked away
Finding eternity in pieces
The heart has to find the way
Never to return in this marketplace
Walking away
Walking away
Grateful to the miseries
I never did deserved that chance

Love to lost
Mountain so high
I have been dead
To be seen alive
The market is still there
The heart remains free
To be its own hero
To be its own love
And I’ll stand with him
Till the breath takes me away
Till my breath takes him away

Unnamed

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Silently I am opening some words
There are letters just kept there
Turning into blue, just like a sword
To say something, I just gave up on you

Hiding beneath the doors
The unopened smile walks by
I don’t want to collect thousand stones I see
Its that one gem I’m waiting for

Shall I say something which is not a lie
I withered with wind and time too shall passby
The river is silent, I don’t hear the sky
I have my faith shaken, It melt in my arms

Too much to count on, Too much to depend by
Mirrors are broken just like a  silent lie
Bless my soul, I feel afraid to see it again
I never wished for a broken holy name

Sun comes up, the moon shine well through
why my sky is still so dark?Why I cant see any star?
Just so in pain, Oh my soul, let me see the one reason
For to stay or to walk away

We all have places for us, We will all chant that name
Who is to survive, How much is my gain?
I see the art, it runs in my veins
Deep inside and I’m turning apart

I say No, you say yes back to me
I say Yes, you wish no to me
I pray yes, you kiss me the faith
The faith to go away, The faith to move again & again

The reason i got this far, I can walk through my hands
I fly with my wings, I hope they can handle
Walking away, Oh I see the end
Saying something, I just gave up on you

Here smiling and wishing upon the heavens above
To something I like, To something I wished in the end
Please destiny, Don’t test me again, I gave it back
Never again, Never see you again

Me?

 

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I am buying
I am laughing
I am seeing
And Yes I am crying
You sound so true
Yet you fail to Impress me
You say you love me
But you make me fall
You try to reach my hand
Yet you are the one to slip around
What is my fault?
Why am I punished?
All I wanted is to be yours
I just wanted to be true
Everyone’s chasing a show
I am no different
I am just trying to steal
My own freedom
My own thoughts
I sleep on stars
Maybe they are mine
May be they will remember
How am I?
Who they are?
Treating the scars
Invaded along the line
I am being gentle
I am being blind
I see just the love
Not its not mine
I lose a lot
I fear afar
I walk in darkness
I see no respect
I don’t know how
But I can’t just stop the feeling
I just can’t
I am being punished
I feel alive
Just while loving you
No complains, nor I demand
If you could understand
Touch me, Feel me,
I am still alive
Breathing here
All I wanted is to be yours
I just wanted to be true

Keep Rocking

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Mesh unwired
I run away
I see away
I stand torn
I sit unborn
I live a lie
I dream undone
I wish I smile
I wanna be awake a while
I wake up and I see
I will be me
I will see through
Whither sea sand
Wishful rain down
No dance to be
No chance left turn
There is no place for me
Out there I see nothing
More than just sky
More than some ground
I want to see my feet
I want to start afresh
The kings and queen
The princess died inside
I be seen shine above
Keeping strong
Keeping faith
No place for me still
I rock my world
In shatters that keep pinching
Wearing my heart on sleeve
You told me
We are awaken broken
Standing far on the doors
I kept walking silently
But how to start
When my hopes are frozen
I keep falling again
I keep walking again
Pushing down on me
Pushing down on me
I sail inside
I wash myself
I sit idle at times
I rock the way
I just keep rocking my world
Sitting at the seaside
I live the fresh air
The sands of smell
The love of new
The waves pinch me high
I keep racing with the waves
There are memories
I just washed away
I don’t need no memory
The place is my own
I call it my home
I love to sail though
I beat the odds on the sail
Together I walk with me
Lifting up and high
I just keep rocking my world
I just love to be me
I’ll see you never
I just keep rocking mine

Cage

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I am burning in cage
I am burning in cage
Pieces of me
Left the aisle inside
Judge me to love
The hatred fills alive
I am standing alone
So so alone
No drops of rain
No flakes of snow
Wishes are gone
Dreams didn’t survived
I am in hell
I am in hell
Here burning alive
I don’t wish to be abandoned
I ain’t a doll be rescued
A human worth if enough
If only the God knows through
My shimmer dispersed
My glitter torn away
I see no light
The Darkness has stayed here
It wants me
No friendship in sign
All relationships are dead
I’m burning in me
I am trapped in mine
I aid no pay
I say no goal
I imagine a lonely walk
A way to go
I keep walking
Till I find this cage
Broken from inside
I will remember
The people who saw
The only wish was more
I would have never saw
The truth be out
I don’t need anyone
The dark gives me power
I am all inside
Seeing the gaps
Just walking away
Scratching my nails
I feel free myself
And when I free
And I know I’ll be
I will just walk away
Silently and slow
I knew my future
Belongs without you
And I live few moments within
Yet the last moment
Has left never to confuse
The burning cage from inside
I’ll survive

Always, Yet New

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Chained off me
I treasure myself
Will I make it through
Will I survive
Make me jump
The eternities wait for me
Stone cold
I am staring at my phone
Eventually I gave up too
I don’t wanna lie
I felt inside
The shame of putting myself
The pain of disparity
The laughing of destiny
My eyes cry out loud
But don’t worry
I am happy, yes I’m
Ways to wish myself
I am walking very silently
I just wish to be invisible
And another to fly
Give a path of none
I want to walk alone
In my mind I see
It is always going to be waste
Always a betrayal on me
Always a betrayal in me
I am going to like you
I am going to hate me
But I say this goodbye
I will be diving inside
God really looking
Help me in this time
The tide I have chosen
Makes me burn inside
What will I make me
What I break for
I am certain for this
I am going to lie
I am going to live
I will be away
I will be in another life
Walking and surrender
To the miseries I see
The only love I feel
The god behind the dream
But there’s no dream left
I just know to survive
In best what I got
I will walk like this
Always a betrayal to see
Always a betrayal in me

Voice Within

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False alarming life
I have run out of stories
I weighed my heart heavier
I have seen stones stronger
I can’t get started
I can’t stop it either
The life is fading
I am falling again
I have a lie to live
I have imagined the boundaries
I walk through the seas
Shock and shine ahead
Gravity is a truth
Painfully walking through
Saying I am through
So many years
The circle of love walks in
There are still turns
I am carry home with me
Breathe again
Start again
Be nothing but a voice within
Be nothing but a voice within

So lost I seem
So proud I have been
It’ll never hurt me
It’s mine forever
I have been living lies
I carry home with me
Stone cold mountain
I have stones in my hands
My eyes have frozen
My tongue doesn’t tip
Couldn’t keep in
Can’t keep them see
I will be alive
I’ll survive
Letting go
What’s not mine shall fly away
Turning away
Slamming the door
I’ll walk away
Breathe again
Start again
Be nothing but a voice within
Be nothing but a voice within

Silence takes over
Saying what I need to say
So many moves to make
Trying harder
There are no dreams more alive
By this night be over
I’ll have a new life
The one full of truths
The one don’t deceive me
The only that’ll have abundant love
Taking on further
Imagining silvers
I rose above stars
I thank my life once again
I see my wings fly
The wings get heavy
And I get exhausted
That’s the moment to see
I am halfway there
Love is around the corner
Flying in my life
I see a peak of you
Come in to me,Arrive
Most welcomed
In the shells of time
By the night is over
There are kisses of dreams
Walking closer
Breathing again
Starting again
Be everything that a voice can be
Be everything that a voice can be

Scared of Love

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I am scared
Of the thing called love
This is so scary
This is so miserable
I am usually never right
I am Usually never scared
I take the right turns
On every other wrong
I have been complemented enough
I have taken the betrayal much
Of all the places
Love- you will never want to be
It’s scary
It makes you miserable
It will take the life out of you
It brings the hell within
The shell will surround you blue
It’s will break you into thousand
The dreams become shallow
The heart becomes a man eater
Follow you through all the pieces
So you many never make it alike
When your kindness is taken
Made it like a mistake
If I would know love would search me
Like the shattered glass I have became
I would leave this world behind
And search the real love I deserved
Wish I have been the soul
Not so sickened about the lies
I may see the better world
Not wearing a skin of lies
Maybe gaining is a momentum
And losing a sigh
Wish you had been the same
I would have least thought of hating
Now I don’t feel anything
Nor any sign
But I am very scared
Of this thing called love
It is a last place to be
It makes you miserable
I don’t know any karma
I don’t know any disgrace
I just know to wake me up
I have been pinched too hard
Just to smile at my situation
Keep laughing traitor
Thanks for leaving me alone
Thanks for laughing at me
I am thankful for the fear of love
You have given me so beautifully
I could never have gotten it by myself
I will walk away, With all my dignity
And my shattered pieces you won’t be stepping on
I will build a castle out of it
But still no place for love
No miseries to come
Just life full of kindness
And mistaken identities

Why

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Why it is never enough?
Why love isn’t the only solution?
Why I miss what I have lost?
Why do I care for not mine?
Why I wish to live it again?
Why I wish to die more than once?
Why is there silence when lips meet?
Why I have no words to pray?
Why I can’t count my blessings?
Why I can’t see my sins?
Why there is no assurance?
Why still I’m expected to be?
Why I need to be present?
Why none notice my absence?
Why I can’t hear any music?
Why I can’t dance when I want?
Why my toes aren’t numb for a reason?
Why my nights are white?
Why my days are greys?
Why I see you in dreams?
Why my world is still so empty?
Why the world seems high?
Why I still want to lie?
Why I have still faith in you?
Why still I don’t have anything to say?
Why I still want to wait for you?
Why the reasons are never wrong?
Why the solutions are always fade?
Why you are drifting away?
What I don’t see the pain?
Why I want to lose away?
Why you the only thing I care?
Why say why?
Why I say to ask?
Why I want to Erie?
When I don’t know any why?
Why begin?
Why end?
Why write?
Why not write?
Why love?
Why hate?
Why the why?
Why is there a why still?